One of the things that made this somewhat easier was when my long-time vet, who was not there when I took Beau in, came over in the waiting room to tell me how sorry he was. We think that Beau had an embolism. They are catastrophic and quick and there is nothing you can do for them. That made me feel somewhat better. Beau actually was worse after the vet and within a short period of time was gone. I do miss him terribly but know that he is with Max. Jamie tried to do the snuggle routine when I was knitting last night. I do have to give him credit for trying. Thank you all for your concern. This is the only place online that I posted about my boy.